What I wanna say is, this post is about my comments on myself. Lol, I'm not going to write all compliments... not that perasan. More to... negative comments lah, cause well my negative points are more than positive points. hahah

The main negative point -- lol I always think of myself only. Its as if others are not that important. I'm always too proud of myself. Trying to believe that I'm actually someone different, someone that's better or above average. Then whenever I realize it all the time, I'm only making myself sad for my own negative way of thinking.

2nd, I never learn to " 珍惜眼前人", also known as "cherish the ones before you, before its too late". Well, I really understand that phrase and I thought I'm actually following it. But, when its time to separate, I always regret, and think that I could actually spend more time and treat them even better. For example, I miss 6M life during 2010. And now, I'm missing 1B5 and 6M life during 2011. I only know how to focus on what I've missed and never really pay attention to the present. I always think, "this is as far as its gonna get, don't expect more from me", when I could have grab any of that chance and be better. So that I won't regret in the future. But, year after year, its still the same.

I'm not determined all the time. Thoughts are shaking. Its like I have 双重性格, so 恐怖. Okay, I have no idea how to expand this paragraph.. hahaha. This is just a way to express my, er.... unsatisfied-ment? of myself. Lol, it makes no sense at all.